so these last couple of months have been hard on me. I would say the worst months of my life so far... It started with all losing one of my best friends. He was my party buddy, a big bro, n the realist of my life. He straight up told you if he had a problem or what needs to be done. he always helped me out in my life, trying to my problems out and i the same for him. The last i saw him we were in a lil fight but it's usual for us we always get over it and best buds again the next day. Well i left the party at his house givin him his space. That's the one thing i regret the most to this day. I never got to see him again til the funeral. he even called me 6 in the morning all drunk wanting to talk but i told him he needs to sober up n then call me. I couldnt even understand a word he was saying, but i could understand his last words. "I'll cya tomorrow." Tomorrow came n it was about 10 in the morning....i got a phone call from his roommate tellin me he was gone. i couldn't believe it... i kept thinking he told him to play this lil prank on me for him.....it wasn't true....he was really gone....out of this life...i never got to say goodbye to the one i cared about so much. Never have i lost anyone close to me like he was to me. i took me about a month for it to fully get in my head he is gone. it changed my life perspective so much. I lost my appartment that i was living in with one of my other good friends cuz it changed me so much. I ended up losin two of my good friends over a stupid fight that they blame my best friend for. I knew they really weren't those good friends i thought they were. Then i lost my ex-boyfriend(now). We've had a relationship for 3 years n he blows it all off for a stupid whore and moved to colorado with her. He still says he loves me but it's all bullshit to me..... everything that came out of his mouth was a lie to me..... all he did was use me for everything cuz he knew i loved him so much and would do anything for him. So that leaves me with my only best friend in the world!!!! Tiger!!!! she's all i need in this world.....other people will come n go but not tiger. We've been friends forever and not once have we got in a major fight over anything....never have we broken each other trust......or back talk, back stabb each other....we are one together. I realize shitty shit happens in life you just got to make it thru it and better things will come along. Things come into ur life and they also go so something better can come into ur life. During these months of depression for me i stop my photography i love so much.... i would pick up the camera from here n there but didn't really get inspired by it like i use to.....but i'm back baby....i just wish my computer would work so i can edit my photos now.